I was feeling lonely. A friend’s newsy letter did not help. Instead of rejoicing she had found a new love, I was jealous. “How come she has a relationship,” I asked God, “and I rate rejection? I’ve been alone longer than she has!”
I didn’t bother to listen for an answer. I was bitter, so I picked up a book instead. I found these lines inside: “No rejection we face can be as terrible as the rejection God faces when we turn away from him. There is no loneliness that goes beyond what God has experienced as a result of his love for us.”
I didn’t recognize the words as mine until I saw my initials on the paper. I’d written that years ago, long before my divorce. I didn’t know then that I’d be preaching to myself.
Anything you say can and may be used against you. Anything you write can, too. That’s the trouble with writing or speaking: you are accountable for your words.
God used something I’d written about loneliness to remind me he knows how I feel. He knows rejection too. He reminded me of his love. I didn’t deserve his gracious response.
The Bible says,
O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
How should we respond? With humility.
Acknowledge… God… and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the LORD searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts.
(1 Chronicles 28:9)